Over the weekend I had an audition.  Atypically and inexplicably I got really stressed out about it.  I was right for the part, I was prepared . . . what was my problem?  The audition went fine.  I left and stressed out even more, picking apart the experience. 

Today, via Gretchen Rubin's Happiness project blog, I read the following excerpt which she pulled from the book The How of Happiness:

Many of us believe that when we feel down, we should try to focus inwardly and evaluate our feelings and our situation in order to attain self-insight and find solutions that might ultimately resolve our problems and relieve unhappiness. Susan Nolen-Hoeksema, I, and others have compiled a great deal of evidence challenging this assumption. Numerous studies over the past two decades have shown that to the contrary, overthinking ushers in a host of adverse consequences: It sustains or worsens sadness, fosters negatively biased thinking, impairs a person’s ability to solve problems, saps motivation, and interferes with concentration and initiative. Moreover, although people have a strong sense that they are gaining insight into themselves and their problems during their ruminations, this is rarely the case. What they do gain is a distorted, pessimistic perspective on their lives.

(here is the link to the full blog post on the subject)

I had, indeed, been guilty of overthinking both before and after my audition.  Not helpful and certainly not conducive to the joy I like to feel (and generally do feel) when I get to participate in my career - in this case, by going on an audition.

It's a good reminder in general.  Sometimes I feel like I have to suffer in order to demonstrate to the universe how badly I want/am working towards something.  I'm pretty sure the suffering actors aren't the ones getting the parts.